I Know The Creator Of The Universe…

22 Jan

How cool is that?

That thought blows my mind! I have a deep, passionate LOVE relationship with THE ONE who created all of the beautiful and magnificent things of this world. THE ONE who placed the stars in the heavens… THE ONE who designed and knitted together every piece of DNA that exists!

The thought that HE cares about ME, loves ME, cherishes ME… that is amazing and overwhelming.

There were many years where even the thought of the supernatural made me want to vomit. I had experienced so many negative, spiritually related situations that I found myself in a place where I had turned my back on even the concept of good and evil, vowing NEVER again to acknowledge God. I had been hurt many times by “Godly” people. I was DONE… stick a fork in me.

Oh, but God is so GRACIOUS. God is so FORGIVING.

In spite of my defiance and rejection of God, HE PURSUED me. He pursued me with a deep passion. He never forced Himself on me. He just stayed right there… beside me… waiting for me to again acknowledge Him.

And OH how I wish I could express what happened in me the moment that I turned to Him and acknowledged Him… and cried out to Him. I will never be the same. Over the last several years, He has been molding me, teaching me, shaping me into the woman that He CREATED me to be. And though I still have moments or periods of defiance, He still loves me and gently encourages me to GROW.

My prayer lately has been, “Father, go into those dark places inside me where I am so weak and be strong for me. Be what I can’t be. Do what I can’t do. I am backing out of the Holy of Holies to make room for Your Spirit to come in and work in me.”

The best part of all… is that I don’t have to be perfect. I don’t have to pretend to be anyone other than who I am. My Facebook status yesterday morning was a line from the song Today by Jefferson Airplane: “Today you’ll look into my eyes; I’m just not the same… To be anymore than all I am would be a lie… I’m so full of love I could burst apart and start to cry.” Those words describe me right now. I am not the same. I am what I am, yet I am willing to become what God wants me to be. I know that I am loved… not just by people, but by the most magnificent BEING that ever was and is.

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